I've been doing a LOT of thinking

[SilencedHeart]

This has to be said regardless of the INSANELY ANNOYING error that just occured, whiping out my very long rant a few moments before I have to leave for class. Because of lack of time I will shorten this to as few words as possible, and elaborate later.

I have been forced to think about everything ki related very very much lately. A lot is being said and theorized about that is just plain imposible. "but ki master," you might say, "you said that with ki anything is possible". Well I was wrong. I was going on the assumption that certain things MIGHT be possible with a limitless energy of inconcievable and unachievable strength. That is not realistic though. There are certain levels that are just plain impossible for humans to reach, and other techniques that would STILL be impossible.

I will be going through my site soon and bringing down to a realistic level, as well as try to read through some of the recent posts on the forum. I have stopped lately because they are just so OFF TOPIC or OUT THERE that I have begun to lose faith in the usefullness and accuracy of the forum.

I am not directing this at everyone or every technique, but there are a lot that are impossible, as well as MANY people who are exagerating, letting their imagination run away with them, or just plain LIEING.

It is very possible that I will have to scrap the forum and start fresh with a REALISTIC point of view this time.

I know many of you will disagree with this and probably be upset with me, but this is not the kind of thing I do lightly. To go back on something this big, I have to convince myself 100%. Up until now, I guess I have been fooling myself, as well as all of you. That is a mistake I intend to fix though.

I will go into this topic in more detail either later or soon.

I will warn you now. MANY of you will not want to hear what I have to say, or read my site or the forum after these changes. You will not like me most likely because I will be judging new techniques and posts very realistically. I WILL lose many readers, but I feel that it is more important to get the correct information to a few than create a fantasy world for many to spend their time in. I may end up just leaving the site/forum business if reality seems to be too much for people to take. If that is the case though, there would be no point in me remaining online because it would just cause countless arguments about what is or is not possible, and I just do not have the time for that right now.

I am sorry for taking so long to figure this all out and convince myself to tell you all. For those of you that have been thinking similarly, perhaps you will back me up a bit on this after I make my point. For those of you who are already set on arguing, please just keep any replies short, to the point, and (if possible) limited to "i agree" or "i disagree" until there is actually enough to have a serious discusion about later. I appologize for being so rigid, but I have to correct my mistakes.

Hope I still have SOME readers afer all of this. In the end though, the site and forum are about learning and the use of ki, not my popularity or ENTERTAINMENT. I just also ask that everyone takes what I say here and in the near future into SERIOUS consideration.

Thank you.

side not: I am NOT angry. The bold words are simply for stressing points or importance.

[SilencedHeart]

Though part of me is sad to say this, I feel it is just time...... I spent so much time creating this site and forum for the sole purpose of spreading what I "know". I will admit that some of what I said is wrong either in terminology or in theory even, but I do know in my heart that what I actually DID was real. I don't care what anyone else says. I just want to make that clear. I have come to a decision that I side with radki over traditional and that other than some people taking things a bit too far and some things being theorized about being a little too far out there, I still agree with what I originally wrote on the site and forum. I have not been caught up on the forum recently though, so I have no idea what is currently going on. I have no intrest in getting caught up anymore though for a few reasons. I barely have the time to do what I need to in my life right now (school and work). My laptop should be dead right now, as the harddrive is damaged to the point where it can not be read for the most part. Somehow, despite the worsened condition, it has started up for what will probably be the final time before I replace the harddrive, so I wanted to say this now. (a side note on the lack of time thing) I was criticized, being called lazy because I said I didn't have time to deal with everything on the forum, that I could have fixed everything in 5 minutes. That is if I wanted to erase everything since the trouble started and pretend it didnt happen, but I don't want to do that. I want the evidence to be there. That way no one can say they were never informed that there was another way. That brings me to the third reason. Despite my efforts and time I apparently wasted on this in some peoples opinions, I am constantly being bitched at (please excuse the language) by just about everyone now. No one seems to appreciate how much I did and continued to try to do despite personal real life issues. I may still come around once in a while, but as for teaching what I know to anyone, I'm done. I just can't take the disrespect and childish behaviors anymore. I'm not saying everyone is like that, but there are just too many. I will remain in contact with certain people if they so wish (if you do, send me a pm with what ever information I will need to do so- screen names or email address). I will most likely leave my site up with the exception of the contact me page, and this forum will remain in place. I will eventually designate a new administrator OF MY CHOOSING ONLY. For the time being though, you guys are pretty much on your own. I am dreadfully sorry to do this to you, but I have way too much going on right now, and the popularity contest of who to side with on the ki handbook forum just isn't worth the trouble it would cause in the other areas of my life to keep up with. Finally, going along with the new admin thing, the forum will be in maintanance mode during the holiday break (I could havejust done it now, but I wanted to be nice and give you guys all a warning). During that time, I will ATTEMPT to make time to go through as much of the posts that have piled up as possible, sort through all of the arguments, and consider a new admin. I will no be taking suggestions, as I will choose who I want in the end anyay. I wanted to say more, but I am afraid this laptop will crash at any second, so I will leave you with this message as is.

Oh and one more thing: IF YOU DO NOT LIKE THE WAY THINGS HAVE BEEN RUN, YOU HAVE ALWAYS HAD THE OPTION TO JUST LEAVE. I have wanted to say that so many times to so many people. If you don't like it, no one is forcing you to come here. And since everyone seems to think they can do such a good job themselves, feel free to created your own site and forum. I am sorry to get so hostile, but I had to let it out after such a long period. I only wish circumstances could have worked out better, but the sad truth is that stuff like this doesn't always fit into a person's life out in the real world, as many of you will eventually find out if you don't lose interest before then.

Thank you and good-bye.